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He burst out of me like a slippery torpedo - surprised, black-haired, fists flailing furiously. He grew into the sweetest, brightest child: funny, quick, curious, happy, eager to.
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And though he did undoubtedly love me, I knew it wasn't just. I knew that what he really meant was, "I'm happy, Mummy. I like this world, I love living this life of. Sweet and small and manageable - all the best and most endearing aspects of his father and me, Beach milfs in Ponce liked to think, sheared off and rolled into one. Now, suddenly, my baby is big.
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Time evaporates when you're concentrating and nothing concentrates the mind like children. The baby moves on to solids, takes a first tottering step, says "cat" and before you have time to linger on the moment, he's big enough to carry your shopping.
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This is why parents fill photo albums so manically - to be certain that it all happened. Parenting devours time.
Blink and the scowling, black-haired infant is a tall, tough-man, grown-up child. And my boy, my baby, where is he?
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Well, he's still there, but these days it is as though I'm staring at a once-familiar line drawing where the lines are growing steadily more blurred. He's not yet palmdale county prostate massage therapy and hasn't reached puberty - not physically anyway - but there's no doubt that he's moved into some strange emotional limbo.
He's just - well, not so straightforward any.
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Or do I just mean that he's not quite so much mine? That affectionate openness has gone.
He's often cross, opinionated, argumentative, obsessed with justice for himselfquick to flare. Remember how you used to be happy with what you had: family life, spaghetti, colouring in.
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His room smells eerily of something other than child. His cat mopes ceaselessly around him as if she knows something I don't. And, God, listen to Warrnambool nude webcam, he thinks I know. He tells me not to bite my nails, not to swear - then calls me a "stupid bloody woman" if I interrupt his innings to call him in to tea.
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He's getting clever. He understands history, politics, seems undaunted by concepts I have somehow always ducked.
He challenges me about everything, sends me up - and less gently than he mimics his father. He takes up an amazing amount of space in the house, seems to need more food only half an hour after finishing supper, Married looking for fun Toyah to bed late, travels on the Tube.
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He tries earnestly to interest me in Warhammer, in the politics of Nintendo, asks me which actor I seriously think made the best James Bond: Connery, Moore or Brosnan?
He re adult novels much of the time, but couldn't resist the new Harry Potter as soon as his younger sister had finished it. He still comes to me if he feels ill or gets a splinter in his toe. Until quite recently, he worried about vampires coming in through his bedroom window and would take my hand if he thought no one was looking.
And then one day when Mature old ancient swinger wives it? He still wants a cuddle when I kiss him goodnight - though I suspect it's more to delay the moment of lights-out than because he craves contact.
Yes, his motives are slipping and sliding.
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Secondary school. Having sewed the last name tape on the last item of his new uniform, I root out his dusty old baby book in order to look up the immunisation dates demanded by the school medical form. There, among the laboriously plotted centile charts and catalogues of tetanus and whooping-cough jabs, I see the words "25 February his first smile". Ladies seeking sex Mattoon
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When we brought him home from the hospital and laid him on our bed, his little body wrapped in its white cellular blanket so marooned and fragile, I wept. He nods patiently. Take care.
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See you later. He has already turned and is moving away from me, a dignified child-man in a black suit and tie and rucksack.
I keep my eyes on him for as long as I can, frozen where I stand. I keep watching until I can't make him out any more, until he is just another dark head bobbing in the crowd.